@natloy3460,
Thank you for sharing your story about this part of your life. It is a story that we can all relate to on some level, as we are your teal sisters. I appreciate your insights about how you choose to live your life, as it is inspiring and very moving. I am definitely a "work in progress", as I try to focus on Now and let go of the thoughts that sometimes plague me. We are not our thoughts, yes that's true, but it is hard to convince one of that in the middle of the night. As you say, we are all human and we struggle sometimes.
Your resilience and grace about all the ups and downs of treatment and recovery touched my heart. You exude love and that is a beautiful thing indeed.