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Dear Teal sisters, the last two weeks preparing for radiation treatments has been more difficult than I imagined. Pulmonary testing, set up Contrast CTscan with tattoos, Contrast MRI and finally a Colonoscopy yesterday. 
i don't feel that I was fully prepared or understood the the full scope of these tests, and all in a short period of time.

This was the first time I was awake during the colonoscopy and although I thought it may be  difficult it allowed me to ask questions. Sadly when I saw the area where the OC has now invaded my colon I could see it and the impact was a bit overwhelming. My gastroenterologist was very compassionate and concerned as the colon was healthy other than the tumor. I am just trying to elevate myself out of the shock and move on. This miserable cancer is just relentless.

I was hopeful for a lovely Easter weekend and will genuinely try to compartmentalize this development until next week. 

Love and light,

Lauren

Dear Teal sisters, the last two weeks preparing for radiation treatments has been more difficult than I imagined. Pulmonary testing, set up Contrast CTscan with tattoos, Contrast MRI and finally a Colonoscopy yesterday. 
i don't feel that I was fully prepared or understood the the full scope of these tests, and all in a short period of time.

This was the first time I was awake during the colonoscopy and although I thought it may be  difficult it allowed me to ask questions. Sadly when I saw the area where the OC has now invaded my colon I could see it and the impact was a bit overwhelming. My gastroenterologist was very compassionate and concerned as the colon was healthy other than the tumor. I am just trying to elevate myself out of the shock and move on. This miserable cancer is just relentless.

I was hopeful for a lovely Easter weekend and will genuinely try to compartmentalize this development until next week. 

Love and light,

Lauren

Hello Lauren,

   I am sending you a virtual hug today, filled with warmth and kindness as you process this latest development. All those tests in a short space of time must have been bewildering. As Alwayslearning said, it is good that the colon itself is healthy! Whatever positives we find, we hold onto them! Compartmentalizing is a good skill to have and one I hope to cultivate better.  

   I hope that you enjoy the Easter weekend regardless. Here on the west coast, we have had unusually warm, sunny weather the last couple of days and it will continue for a few days. The spring flowers are showing off and I can smell their light, gentle fragrance when I walk around the neighborhood. 

Kindly,

Leslie 

Dear Teal sisters, the last two weeks preparing for radiation treatments has been more difficult than I imagined. Pulmonary testing, set up Contrast CTscan with tattoos, Contrast MRI and finally a Colonoscopy yesterday. 
i don't feel that I was fully prepared or understood the the full scope of these tests, and all in a short period of time.

This was the first time I was awake during the colonoscopy and although I thought it may be  difficult it allowed me to ask questions. Sadly when I saw the area where the OC has now invaded my colon I could see it and the impact was a bit overwhelming. My gastroenterologist was very compassionate and concerned as the colon was healthy other than the tumor. I am just trying to elevate myself out of the shock and move on. This miserable cancer is just relentless.

I was hopeful for a lovely Easter weekend and will genuinely try to compartmentalize this development until next week. 

Love and light,

Lauren