Hello @WestWind. I believe this may be your first post and so I welcome you to OVdialogue. My heart broke a little when I read your note. I'm so sorry for the challenges you have faced and what seems like a lack of positive support. I can definitely relate to your comment that when a mistake happens and it's related directly to you, it does make things more stressful, especially when no-one seems to take it as serious or importantly as you do. It sounds like you may have recently finished chemotherapy? My apologies if I misinterpreted that in your post. I'm also quite surprised that an oncologist would say there's an "80% chance of your cancer returning imminently". While I believe our medical team needs to be honest with us relative to the facts as it relates to recurrence rates of this cancer, it just seems like an odd statement. Especially when adding the word "imminently". I would want to know exactly what led him/her to make such a specific statement of claim about your personal situation.
Not that this makes any excuse for your situation however, I do not see my oncologist every time I go to the cancer centre (Princess Margaret in T.O.). I typically am seen by a nurse practitioner OR one of the residents who work on my oncologists team. I tend to only see my oncologist every 2nd or 3rd visit and those are months apart. I like to believe (perhaps naively) that if there was something of concern, then they'd ensure I saw my oncologist. Also, I tend to only get 5 - 8 minutes with my oncologist so it's not a huge amount of time. If you feel you would like to see your oncologist, go back and make your request. Many of the Teal Sisters here have learned that self advocacy is sometimes the only way to get seen and heard. Also ask for more information on why he/she made their statement on your recurrence. I'd want him/her to provide some qualifying information to help me better understand. I'd also like to understand, "if" there's a recurrence, what would be the plan of attack? I'm known for saying, "don't bring me problems, bring me solutions". Feel free to use that with your oncologist.
I'm hoping other Teal Sisters will provide their perspectives and insight as well. I hope we can be the supportive group that you may need. Thank you for sharing. Sending you strength and positivity. 🩵
P.S. As well, if it's of any value, there is a workshop coming up if it's of interest. It's by the Look Good, Feel Better foundation. In the session they will provide expert tips on how to manage and cope with cancer-related anxiety, including fear of recurrence, scan-related stress, and lingering concerns about your health and future. I've added the link below.
https://lgfb.ca/workshops-top-page/fear-and-worry/
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