Hi @DiamondGoddessYYC
First off, I just want to extend my deepest empathies to you. This disease causes us such a tremendous amount of anxiety and daily worry. Not to minimize what you are going through, or come across as tone deaf but there is, I feel a silver lining to this. I think I previously mentioned in a chat that I, like you also have the clear cell subtype stage 3b. Do you know what substage you are?. Any who, the silver lining is it took almost two years to recur. I don't know how much you have read about clear cell, perhaps you have researched even more than I but... I will just say it anyways.
Clear cell ovarian cancer is basically defined as a rare and aggressive subtype, although there are many women with more indolent or "lazy" variations. The majority of these types recur within 6 months. Also, since it has been more than 6 months since chemo ended then that means you are platinum sensitive, another positive, especially when it comes to our type.
have you had your tumor tested for possible targeted mutations? this could be helpful, why was immunotherapy not offered to you ( maybe it was ) I see you are in Alberta and I must admit I am not familiar with the rules they must follow in oncology. I am in Montreal, and I doubt we are offered anything better ; ) my gyne/onc said if I ever recur we will try immunotherapy. Clear cell is " supposed" to be the type that might respond better to immunotherapy. I asked my Dr if they would still try immuno on me even though my tumor was not microsatellite high, and had a low TMB she said they actually do not think these molecular finding are what make women have a good response... so, does that mean that histology alone can make the difference?
Again, I am sorry you have been dealt a recurrence. recurrence is something I worry about almost everyday. I allow myself 15/20 minutes a day to actively think about my diagnosis and what that means, all the what ifs , all the crap, i wish i did that... then i move on with my day and leave that behind.
Does your oncologist offer any words of hope? or do you not ask. every appointment I go to I always ask. These questions are not for everyone. If ever you want to chat privately, I am here.