I am finding any kind of socializing very difficult. I’ve just finished six rounds of chemo for a first recurrence of stage 3c/4 HGSOC six months after completion of primary treatment with carboplatin and paclitaxel. Through all of this I have found socializing somewhat difficult, although I think I mostly have a pretty good attitude, but now I find it almost impossible. I really don’t want to see anyone apart from my immediate family . I have thought of talking to a counsellor but don’t even have the energy to get that in place.
I have a great support system, great husband, wonderful friends and wider family. But I just really don’t even want to talk to anyone. Don’t want to phone, don’t want to text, don’t want to email, don’t want to see anyone. Really, I do just want to hide out.
Is this depression or chemo fatigue related or what? Or am I just feeling sorry for myself? I don’t feel physically that bad except for the first week after chemo when I have a lot of bone and joint pain, weakness and of course fatigue.
I’ve always been a happy and positive person and I want that back!