I am finding any kind of socializing very difficult. I’ve just finished six rounds of chemo for a first recurrence of stage 3c/4 HGSOC six months after completion of primary treatment with carboplatin and paclitaxel. Through all of this I have found socializing somewhat difficult, although I think I mostly have a pretty good attitude, but now I find it almost impossible. I really don’t want to see anyone apart from my immediate family . I have thought of talking to a counsellor but don’t even have the energy to get that in place.
I have a great support system, great husband, wonderful friends and wider family. But I just really don’t even want to talk to anyone. Don’t want to phone, don’t want to text, don’t want to email, don’t want to see anyone. Really, I do just want to hide out.
Is this depression or chemo fatigue related or what? Or am I just feeling sorry for myself? I don’t feel physically that bad except for the first week after chemo when I have a lot of bone and joint pain, weakness and of course fatigue.
I’ve always been a happy and positive person and I want that back!
Many of us can relate to all or some of those feelings. I have found what you need in terms of support seems to change over time. Please take advantage of all supports your cancer centre can offer as they provide excellent resources and connections. I'll direct message you .
I sure do appreciate you. I actually felt much better as soon as I posted my initial comment. Just needed to get to a point of desperation I guess. Thank you for being there. ❤️
I do really wish I could find a support group. It just feels like there’s just so much you don’t have to explain to someone who’s been there or is there. And I’m not sure it’s possible to understand what chemo fatigue feels like if you haven’t had it. Or chemo brain. Or the aching bones and joints etc. I often just don’t really feel understood. It’s not intentional, I know, and I always feel bad because I know that people are coming from a caring and loving place and I should be more appreciative. Is there such a thing as cancer guilt?