Recently I was at the cancer clinic for check-up. During the rectal exam the doctor could feel lumps in my bowel. She told me not to go home and worry but that I was to have a CT scan and return for another checkup in a month. I was scheduled for a colonoscopy later that week (due to constipation problems). After the procedure I was diagnosed with a healthy bowel.
Though I tried not to worry, I think subconsciously I was thinking "what if". I think even though I have done really well (1 year 7 months post chemo), a tiny part of me in the back of my brain cannot help but worry about a reoccurance. Especially, when normal health problems crop up. Fortunately everything turned out ok, but I am left with a throbbing headache today after all of that go ahead last week. So, I am just going to take a day for me, drink some tea, do some knitting, and relish in the thought that after all I have been through, I am ok.