Hi Everyone,

I've been struggling with deep depression for awhile now. Depression isn't knew to me, but for some reason this feels different. In the past, I was able to find ways to cope like walking, listening to music, reading or talking to a friend. This time, I can't seem to find a way to help myself. I've been on anti depressive medication for ages, dr has raised my dose a few times. I did talk to my dr about seeing someone from psychosocial recently. They will be in touch soon. 

When I lost my sweet Ginger girl last Father's Day I felt very sad for months. On Christmas Eve 2017 we adopted a two year old rescue dog from Tennessee. She's a fearful little soul, but what a little beauty. I started to feel better after we got Sasha and things were good for awhile.  So grateful for her and she's definitely great therapy, but I'm still depressed.

It's been almost 6 years since I was diagnosed with stage 3c ovarian cancer. My cancer is incurable and I have accepted that. Still scares the shite out of me though.  

Here is a photo of my baby girl Sasha.


  • Hi @birdee... welcome back to the site....thank you for posting about this important topic and for sharing. I'm glad you are able to reach out to your medical team for help,  and this forum... we are here to support as we can.

    On a personal note, psychosocial support guided me through some sad, painful times and provided some coping techniques. I hope you are feeling ok today and thank you again for sharing those animal pics, they sure do make us smile.
  • Thank you for sharing @birdee I hope you have a strong support system around you. Your pup is absolutely adorable
  • I took a coping clinic at the hospital in 2013. The Dr who ran the clinic also saw patients one on one if needed. I found it very helpful at the time.  I'm a patient at Princess Margaret Hospital now. Not sure what they will offer.

  • @birdee sorry to hear about your battle with depression. I too have suffered off & on with depression& anxiety years before my diagnosis. I note that you said your Dr has increased your dosage with no luck. Maybe time to ask him or her to try you on a new medication, there are a lot of new medications in that field that provide better results, not like the old days when everyone 
    was on Prozac ;) I love your Sacha I had a dog Jimmi who looked the very same except he was black & white. He was a loyal friend & was with us for 14 yrs. I grieved his passing for a very long time.
    wishing you well
  • Hi @birdee @Jack @red1976 - I've popped onto the site tonight to check in to see how you are all managing tonight?

    On those days when you feel like you are going "down the rabbit hole" (that is how I describe it) nice to know someone is there for you - here - on the site. A virtual shoulder to lean on, here to listen and support. 

  • @Flowergirl Thank you :) and it's very true. I call it my runaway train but the rabbit hole fits well too! I did some self care today....journalled and laughed with a friend so I'm happy to be in a good space tonight.
  • HI @red1976 - that is great - I'm glad to hear you have those outlets.
    I forced myself to get out in the cold and sunshine for skating today - sure was nice.

    Anyone else? what is your go to for self care when you find yourself "onboard the runaway train" or " sliding down the rabbit hole"
  • Hi All, hope everyone had an ok day. When I'm feeling like I'm on that runaway train I usually go to the gym, I feel that helps making me feel like I'm helping myself & alleviates stress. When I am not able or willing to leave home I like t sketch or paint. Every Friday I meet some lady friends for a recap of our weeks & have a drink .
  • Hi @Jack - I like how you mentioned that with those activities, it feels like you are helping yourself ... I’m going to try and focus on that perspective - thank you.
  • Hi @birdee.  Just wanted to check in with you and see how you are doing?  Have you found some support through Princess Margaret or a change in your medication.  I hope that Sacha is continuing to bring you some comfort....
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