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@Elgin55
  It is a tough spot to be sitting in as fear can overtake a big part of our lives.  Some of that fear is identifying where it is coming from and seeing if you can find ways to deal with what that identifier is.  The other part is going through the process of understanding that you are coming to the time that you find yourself "living with cancer" and all the thoughts etc that go with it.  Sometimes, I feel choices in treatment are knowing what it looks like if you don't do it (worst case scenario) and what it will look like if you do and best outcomes.  You will find you will be somewhere in the middle should you choose to do treatment.  There is a high probability there will be side effects as that comes with a lot of medications out there and how a body responds.  Do you have to like those side effects?  Nope!  I currently don't like the ones I am experiencing but I also know that beyond this drug I have nothing left should the Letrozole on it's own stop working.  But those were my choices based on my own situation.  @GloHo is correct.  Ask, research, write down your questions and make sure you get your answers AND understand them.  You do NOT have to make a decision that day.  If you need time to think about it and process all the information, then do so.  Even if they feel it is urgent, they will tell you a timeline and give you time to process. This disease SUCKS!  I won't sugar coat it because it is the truth. 

I found a quote in a book I read entitled "When Bad Things Happen to Good People" : "We may not understand why we suffer or be able to control the forces that cause our suffering, but we can have a lot to say about what the suffering does to us, and what sort of people we become because of it. Pain makes some people bitter and envious. It makes others sensitive and compassionate. It is the result, not the cause, of pain that makes some experiences of pain meaningful and others empty and destructive."
  
Take time for you and you will find that you will come to an end result that is right for you.